I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. – Galatians 2:20
Today this hit me hard. Why? I have been following Jesus for years. I have read it before. Even heard others teach on it.
For some reason, today I understood it in a new way. I think it has to do with me being in this time of surrender.
Is following Jesus is just a free gift that I get to receive and then go on with my life and my desires?
Not that I’ve thought that intentionally, but I’ve acted like it. This is about giving up everything to Jesus, absolute surrender.
I don’t live anymore, I’m just a vessel for Jesus to do his work through me. He calls me to give up absolutely unequivocally everything.
My physical body I give up.
My mind and everything that goes in and out, I give up.
I am called to be a vessel for Jesus to love through me. Jesus is who I live to honor, and to honor him is to do as he did.
I realized something incredible. Jesus was the vessel that brought me my freedom.
It is now my life, my honor, my privilege to surrender myself so that others can know this love and so that He can be glorified.
How great is the love of Jesus? A selfless, perfect, unfailing, never ending, love that looked on me in my poverty and sin and rejection of His sacrifice and said, “Forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” – Luke 23:24
Jesus looked upon me, Andrew, rejecting him. With this perfect love He saw me. And stayed there on the cross for me.
That love absolutely blows me away.
My sinful self was crucified with Jesus. In return He gave me everything.
What can I do but just invite him into my home. I have nothing to give that would ever be good enough. My finest is garbage.
All I can do is just surrender and give it all to Him. To just live and act as He did for me.
I know we all go through seasons where we have ups and downs. I have totally been there. Sometimes the vision of Jesus is not as real and close and challenging and directing.
In those times, for me, I have lost focus and allowed my selfishness to rise up and I conceded to temptations in life.
When has this happened to me?
It’s been when I’m not actively in the Bible every single day. It’s when I’m not reading with a hungry desire to know Him. When I’m not reading even when it’s hard. When I don’t want to and the things of this world are distracting me.
That’s when I need it most.
It’s when I’m not praying continuously and surrendering myself – my thoughts and desires and ambitions in prayer. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 tells us to pray without ceasing. To have continual conversation and counsel with Jesus.
It happens when I’m not in worship and letting songs of God’s truth speak and direct me where I’m at.
When I’m running after God, singing songs from the heart can release whatever is holding me back, and the Holy Spirit reminds me of His promises. When I worship Jesus, what I was feeling or dealing with often turns out to not be that big of a deal. Or it’s just downright selfishness.
I must be in the Word. I must be in prayer. I must be worshiping Him. I must be living my whole life as worship to Jesus.
This is convicting me: I have to continually be in surrender and pursuit of Jesus.
What Jesus did was final, He took down the walls and broke the chains that I face. It is not my battle, but I surrender to His victory. Every day, I surrender.
I do not live any longer, but Jesus alive in me.